Getting through the last year of high school is pulling all the motivation I have. And yet for some odd reason, this fall I will be attending college. Harder classes, and very expensive to say the least. What am I thinking (for all those with a sarcastic sense of humor, don't say a word)? What in the world has me so posessed as to think that I can successfully reaply myself to books? Well I know spring break is coming so I'll hold together a little while longer.

I was sitting in a class the other day, the teacher had finished lecture time and I was having an interesting conversation with a fellow student. We were discussing religion, politics and the homosexuality issue. After some time I started to see a pattern to the converstion. When either of us wanted to flatten the others comment the sentence would start, "I respect your point of view, but...". I noticed that each time this was said the person on the receiving end would get slightly angry that...

I can do the whole, I believe when I don't know for sure, but I can't do the whole, I don't know why I believe what I believe. Its all about the why, not the what. Faith is knowing why you believe in what you don't see. You can't simply believe because you just do, you have to understand why you believe what you just do. Why did I believe or not believe, that is what I needed to figure out. I came to realize I don’t need to know exactly what I’m supposed to believe in. I do need to know...

I love those days when a couple of buddies just to get together and goof off. Play a little "DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION" and drink vernors till we get so sick from the shaking that we lie down to play some good ol zelda. Yes I admit it, my friends and are indeed gamers. Not exactly those pathetic guys who do nothing else but gamers nontheless. I love games simply because they are nice to play by oneself but are even better with a group of friends. I wish school could be made so easy with the help...

Recently a person I knew, not too well, committed suicide. While nothing in my personal life was affected it really got me to start thinking about my own mortality. I really am just a speck in the wind like everyone else on the planet. I have a hard time thinking that life is really that short and can be taken away with a single decision. Why would anytone voluntarily choose to end their life. Is it because their life is more miserable than others? For some reason I don't believe that, and I...

I've noticed that females are the masters of multitasking. I have a single track mind, it's hard to focus on several things at once. I would rather take my time and get it done well than get a load of thing s done and do the semi quality. The thing is girls can do them all at once with fairly high quality, or attention to detail. My question is for the girls, how can you do a little bit of everything without the alot of nothing? I was with a group the other night and I tried to follow the...

On August 4th my mother came up to me after breakfast and sad she needed to talk to me alone. The firsr thing that came to mind was oh crap, I'm in trouble again. I didn't know for what, but we headed out to Logan's Landing, a little park by the Bordman river. I handn't been to that park in many years and doubt I'll go there for many to come. She told me that she had filed for seperation from my father. I wasn't hurt, I was definately not confused and I didn't really have any emotion wha...

I just recently decided to apply for a higher paying job at a local water park. As of now I work as a bagger at a local grocery market, where the pay is low, but the co-workers and the managers are great. I decided to risk it all to see how the new job goes, and I hope that the pay ( since it is my pay plus another half of my salary) will make the switch worthwhile. I feel decidely lousy jumping out on my boss, but he will get two weeks notice and I really don't want to burn any bridges behind...

Over the past several weeks I have experienced crumbling in my foundation of belief. To put it simply almost everything in my life over the past four years has been a lie to keep people at a distance. I thought I knew that if they got too close they wouldn't like the real me and I would lose them. It hit me a short while ago that if i held friends at a distance there was really nothing to lose. so now I am rebuilding the foundation of my life and hoping that it will not crumble over on my head...

My friend (you may know him, Dan Kaschel) and I were walking out of a book store late Monday night when a car full of college age students drove up and stopped to ask for directions. The thing that amazed me is how many guys fit into such a small car! Anywho, they asked my friend where the dock was, he glanced increduously at me (since the dock was clearly marked to blocks back) at starts the task of trying to get these guys to realize they missed it two blocks ago. The entire time the driver is...

My friend (you may know him, Dan Kaschel) and I were walking out of a book store late Monday night when a car full of college age students drove up and stopped to ask for directions. The thing that amazed me is how many guys fit into such a small car! Anywho, they asked my friend where the dock was, he glanced increduously at me (since the dock was clearly marked to blocks back) at starts the task of trying to get these guys to realize they missed it two blocks ago. The entire time the driver is...

Why is it that parent's seem to be so power hungry. I know for a fact that both my parents went through very similar things when they were teens, though teens today have alot more stress without any doubt, but I often wonder what changed them. Whenever an injustice is done I think about how I'll never do that to my children because I want to end up nothing like what my parents are. Now the funny thing is I'm sure they said the same thing, so what changed their minds as to the decision that affec...

Ever since the telescope was introduced and most likely before, humans have been searching the universe for signs of life beyond their own little world. TV shows were created such as "Star Trek" and "Star Wars" to let the imagination roam free, and to paint a picture of what each indivdual thinks could be out there. I admit I've had my own fanciful ideas , but recently I've been thinking (a rare occurrence in itself) not on what's out there, but why in the heck the human race really cares o...

When confronted with the idea that I (basically computer illiterate) could successfully use the internet to express myself, I was not overly confident in the idea. Needless to say with some friendly prodding here I am to bore you all with my thoughts on various topics. My purpose is simple, to express how I feel. I look forward to future input on my ideas. Yours Sincerely, Tim