A random conglomeration of thoughts by yours truly.
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September 29, 2006 by perrinwlf
I guess it always comes down to this. Just sitting down and thinking about my past. The people I've loved and lost. It's been a great couple of years, and it's also been pretty rough. I just wonder how much I could have done differently. I've been in college, I've been in love, I've lost my mother (relationship, not death) I've gained something I've been after for 20 years. That one moment choked me up more than anything ever has. My father said he was proud of me, he said he admired ...
March 10, 2006 by perrinwlf
Well, I might as well go in order that the title dictates. The good first: I finally got "the call". I get shipped out to basic training on Tuesday. Now some may see this as bad, but I'm estatic. I not only have a career that i actually want to pursue, but I also get to escape all the drama from my family and "others". I'm pumped, it was perfect timing, so yeah, thats the great news in my life. The bad, well it's always hard when you get slammed by a women, it gets even worse when you rea...
February 20, 2006 by perrinwlf
Ah, how easy is it to avoid people on the internet. As soon as you see them sign on, you simply sign off, or better yet use a ghost program. The downfall to this is, they realize they are being avoided. So whats the point I'm wondering. Prolonging the uncomfortable feeling that makes you avoid someone in the first place. There is a difference between cutting all communications off, and just making sure that the person doesn't get a chance to speak to you, and I'm wondering what the point is. ...
February 7, 2006 by perrinwlf
The quote on the back of my senior T-shirt reads, "come home bearing your shield, or on it" except that it was in latin. It was much cooler that way. If you don't quite get what that means, it's pretty much "do or die trying." It was the phrase that sent warriors into battle, to fight, and sometimes die with pride and honor. It was inspiration, but also a promise that nothing short of death itself could stop the men of the army. People protested in the streets when the soldiers loaded up...
January 27, 2006 by perrinwlf
Ever since I was a little kid, I had to have, "my special place". No one else knew where it was, it was mine alone. It was solitary, letting me think and reflect, and now I have to find a new one. I had two during highschool, the loft in my barn and a part of the roof that wasn't visible to the road or driveway. I could escape and think, but now I'm at a loss.Five acres of flat grass is alot different than ten acres of hills and trees. So I continue to search for somewhere to call my own. ...
January 15, 2006 by perrinwlf
When ever I was to be punished as a child my mother generally handled it, and by handling it, she smacked me to next week and back with a wooden spoon. I'm not mad about this, actually I'm grateful for it. When I got into real trouble, the famous phrase that held so much fear for me was unleashed, "just wait until your father gets home!" gasp! My father was a drill seargent in Korea, not during the Korean war, he's not that old yet. Very laid back most of time, but when he becom...
May 26, 2006 by perrinwlf
I'm in the United States Air Force, and I take my mission very seriously. I love my country, I serve it and I am willing to die for it. I do this because there are people that I couldn't stand to see get hurt. These people I protect, I realize they have different views, different lives and they might even believe what I do for them is wrong, but I still do it because that's my mission. What I can't understand is why you would go up to someone who is trying to protect you and say, "Why don...
February 1, 2006 by perrinwlf
I don't get it. It's two weeks away and already girls are chatting about it like christmas. I'm trying to go into hiding as the lace and big red hearts make their way into all the stores. What I'm wondering is why it's such a huge deal. Why are girls so worried about having a valentine or not, and why do they think they have a right to be desperate and picky. j/k, kinda. I can't see the point in picking a day that everyone who is anyone has to be with someone. It seems like an awful lo...
January 26, 2006 by perrinwlf
Just in case anyone was wondering I did end up apologizing, not for what I said, but for how I said it. Everyone deserves to hear things in a fair way, and I did cross the line. Chalk one up for life experience.
January 11, 2006 by perrinwlf
yeah, so today I have seen my site like never before. I always signed in but typing the whole URL, but today I signed in through just joeuser. I feel ridiculis or course, but I the buttons to delete and edit just weren't there before. Wow, I feel foolish.
January 3, 2006 by ISOL
I was hurt the other day, not cut or bruised, but emotionally hurt. I thought, well big deal, but now its started to affect my physical form. I don't sleep, I barely eat and I feel sick to my stomach all day. I thought I was a stronger person than this. It doesn't matter how fast I run, how hard I work, I just can't escape this sick feeling. I'm ready for it to go, but I know I'll feel this pain alot for a long time. Is there any way to make it go away? To forget everything, without the obvio...
August 20, 2005 by ISOL
I got the chance to walk in the rain again. And I jumped in puddles too! All because I got to hang out with a beautiful friend of mine.
January 22, 2005 by ISOL
I was sitting in a class the other day, the teacher had finished lecture time and I was having an interesting conversation with a fellow student. We were discussing religion, politics and the homosexuality issue. After some time I started to see a pattern to the converstion. When either of us wanted to flatten the others comment the sentence would start, "I respect your point of view, but...". I noticed that each time this was said the person on the receiving end would get slightly angry that...
February 23, 2004 by ISOL
I just recently decided to apply for a higher paying job at a local water park. As of now I work as a bagger at a local grocery market, where the pay is low, but the co-workers and the managers are great. I decided to risk it all to see how the new job goes, and I hope that the pay ( since it is my pay plus another half of my salary) will make the switch worthwhile. I feel decidely lousy jumping out on my boss, but he will get two weeks notice and I really don't want to burn any bridges behind...
February 16, 2006 by perrinwlf
I just found out the best way for a single guy to spend valentines day. That sickening day if red hearts, candly and watching the sickening display that the coupled people put on. I also found the one place where all of it seems to dissappear! I spent the day in a military office doing tests, mental and medical. The theme of the day wasn't love, it was hurry up and wait. I didn't even remember that it was valentines day until I got to my hotel, then I saw all the couples dissappear into their...