Ever just sit back and realize that contrary to your belief, you're not a nice person? There's no use in denying it. Nobody is really nice through and through, and there are some of us, that are only are the tiniest bit nice. It's always wierd to come to the realization that people have a reason to dislike me. I'd like to think of myself as a polite young man raised with old fashioned courtesy, especially when around ladies. But is that really being nice, or just a conditioed upbring...

Ever just watch guys and their dogs play. I don't mean like a guy walking his dog down the street, I mean the pair that you just know are perfect friends. They rough house, and you just see that they are inseperable. They're both happy, and there is no reason to seperate them. The saddest thing of all, is when most girls see them they think, "Wow, if they're this devoted to a dog, just think how devoted to me they'll be!' Ladies, I have some sad news for you. If a guy is truly devoted to...

Ever run into someone later in life and just think, "wow, the times have sure changed." It happened to me last night. I ran into a girl from highschool that I once had a thing for. I was turned down, which didn't surprise me considering my "social position" in highschool. I wasn't exactly running with the "in crowd", and she was definately running with that crowd. Again it's no surprise, she is a beautiful girl with a wonderful singing voice, not to mention very intelligent. To get back o...

I've been thinking alot lately about all the things that I've gotten myself into. I joined the military knowing that I'm going to the desert and I have that chance of death. I wouldn't have joined if I wasn't ok with that. Now I'm not saying I want to go to Iraq and die, far from it. The US military slogans, among us anyways are, hurry up and wait, and the one that pertains, The point isn't death for your country it's making the other guy die for his. I don't plan on getting hit, but ah ...

Romance, dilemma, and somehow I take comfort in the fact that I'm not the only one to face them. It's actually funny in a way, the harder I try to fix my problem the worse they become. It's hard for me just to sit back and let everything unfold, but that seems to be the wisest course of actions usually. I don't think there has ever been an exception, even with girls I tended to rush blindly in. Yeah....... I'll let you guess how that went. And I thought I was supposed to have that damned "luc...

Dear XXXXXXX   Why is everything so natural when we're together, yet so awkward as soon as the phone touches my ear. I can't read you, see your reactions, can't see you smile through the damned thing. Why can't I hear you smile? Are you excited when you see my name appear, or does a small frown appear on realizing that we are still apart. I hate this feeling, this unknown that looms over everything I do. I often wonder if this is the way, the path we need to be on, or should we separa...

So writing a love letter seems to be a lost art. I do not know anyone who has actually ever written or received a love letter. Failure? Change in society, lack of ability, or faith there in to write. What do you actually say? What goes into a letter that would make a heart jump just looking at it. What to write that someone would cherish until the page it came on became crinkled and worn because it was read so many times. Maybe love, in the classical romantic sense is dead...  Dear XXXXX...

So big conclusion, it's important for me to remember. Need to get this down, I won't forget, even without, I won't forget this.....ever. I had a plan, it was smooth, daring, romantic and classy. I got a nice room with a great view, jacuzzi in the bedroom, brought champaign, even set roses out. It was wonderful, I figured it would work. Dinner at a nice little restaurant, shared desert, even started the evening with a kiss. All according to plan, in a way. I didn't think I'd be willing to put ...