Don't worry, I'm talking to myself
Ever just sit back and realize that contrary to your belief, you're not a nice person? There's no use in denying it. Nobody is really nice through and through, and there are some of us, that are only are the tiniest bit nice.
It's always wierd to come to the realization that people have a reason to dislike me. I'd like to think of myself as a polite young man raised with old fashioned courtesy, especially when around ladies. But is that really being nice, or just a conditioed upbringing?
I've come to realize that it's a combination of both, but that still doesn't make me a nice person. I still (and I'm working on this) judge people unfairly, dislike people with beliefs extremely opposing my own, and one of my most shameful habits.... I've picked up foul langauge. I know it's wrong not because people tell me, but because I change my speech habits when I change company. I'm working on my foul tongue too. Just the fact that all this is a part of me lets me know that I have no right to judge anyone. Not that being perfect would give me the right to judge anyone anyways.
I guess it just really stinks when I realize that I'm not as good as I once thought.. Oh well, at least I don't have to worry about an inflated ego for awhile.
Sincerely yours,
Tim